Darkness

I am in a bad mental state... I think

Remember that "mark" on my forehead...well I just realized it wasn't there from the beginning...

Derek is soo cute! But I have a feeling it wasn't an accident that we met... but i can't get over him...and remember the dream of the little boy? i know have dreams of a witch... here's a picture of what looks best of her:



creepy huh? well she speaks to me... and she says" wake up... or WE will wake you up!"

then...I wake up from my dreadful dream.... there was one where she said "Derek is ready..but why not you?" I can remember screaming NO! to her and then Nina waking me up.

I have noticed that Nina has been having dreams too... it scares me but they are different.

Nina explained that she had a dream of me and her mother disappearing unless she did what an evil man in her dream told her to. She had to take souls and re use other bodies as hers before her light went out. She started crying as she told me...

And the weirdest part is: I can see the future! I have visions and then POOF! They happen.... and:

Derek has been coming over alot recently... he is so normal yet mysterious I think I will tell him my feelings tomorrow!...Or not...because why would he be in these weird dreams??? Maybe because I think of him so much HA why would he have anything to do with this!

LUV-

****LUNA STAR

What has happend?

i am in so much joy!!!

I have changed soo much ... Nina started school, and I am her mother. She now forgets alot about her mother, but i haven't. At nights we still look for her, without Nina knowing.

Gosh. It has been weeks since I said anything to you, please, know this: Not only have I changed for the better, but I have changes for the weirder. Sounds weird, right? I can do things I can't explain.

I'm scared too. I don't know who I really am! I am scared I will harm Nina. In my dreams, I picture darkness, the color purple, actually. The dream tells me to get ready for the worst. It takes me back into my darkest moments. Like, losing my parents, and the day I saw Nina.

There is so much you don't know. I'm scared if I tell, I won't be normal. anymore.

WHY!!! WHY MUST I HAVE NINA WITH ME!!!! WHAT IF I DO SOMETHING WRONG TO HER!!! WHAT IF I'M...I'M EVIL!

Those thought are always with me. Today I was getting Nina ready for bed, and then I had a vision of a young boy, he looked just like me.. I wonder who he is.

Before I leave, I have to tell you, I met this strange boy at the park today, his name is Derek. He has that same mark on his forehead, just like i do....


LUV-


**** LUNA STAR